Ken- you are doing great buddy!!! Faith is so much bigger than man. The world tries to box it up into religions, keep it only in churches, kick it out of schools, water down the message, promote "alternate lifestyles" & justify it through our desensitized generations of folks who say it is normal & accepted to be a Vegan/Organic/Trans-Gender/Eco-Gothic/ Feakazoid who thinks we should worship the world, sun, water & dirt...
But you have a pure belief/faith that does not need input or approval from men... you don't have to understand it all right now either. You know it works, it only is between you & God. Man, I will say it again, we cannot find spirituality in a carnal world that battles with our own flesh all the time. Science alone cannot define spirituality... this is why so many college professors find God too hard to believe in... they think they are too smart & educated to have faith in something way bigger than them!!! Keep the faith Ken... it is your biggest asset. No man can take that away from you.