beast, there isnt any words that i can say that would ease your mind. i truly wish there were.but im lucky to have my brothers in the club to turn to when i get afraid or really down.i dont sleep much so i8m up most nites.if you want to just talk, yell, scream whatever please give me a call. im here almost 24hrs aday.im were your at just different situation.i aint good at writin what i feelbut im a damn good listener!prayers are with you brother ken